I am currently listening to the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. In the first leg of the book, she travels to Italy and meets some new friends. One of her new friends Julio tells her that every place has a “word” that describes it. Like Rome’s word is sex. I think she said that New York’s word would be driven and she named a few others that were exactly as I would have guessed.
It got me thinking. What word am I? I can think of a few that others would describe me as, but probably can’t write on my blog unless I change the rating to X. Heh! But really what word would I use to describe “ME”? One word that truly tells you who I am on all levels. I am going to add in here, “at this point in my life”. Back in the day, I would have described myself as shallow or materialistic, or angry. But what about today, right now.
AWARE: After almost a week of thinking about this, A LOT, this is the word that most resonates with me right now.
I am acutely AWARE of how much work I have a head of me when it comes to getting healthy.
I am AWARE that when I say or do something that is not what I consider on the path to getting where I want to be, I need to stop, figure out why I did or said that and then readjust.
I am AWARE that when I hear or see others doing things that I do, have done, or don’t want to be around anymore; I need to take action with boundaries.
I am AWARE of how much my daughter needs me to grow, learn and lead by example.
I am AWARE of the fact that I can do this and that my efforts will result in good.
I am AWARE of the fact that I don’t let people complete what they are saying before I jump in and either finish their sentence or add something in about me. I need to listen more.
I am AWARE of myself when I get irritated or frustrated with my 2 year olds age appropriate actions.
I am also AWARE that I am AWARE now and this is a very good thing and a huge step for me.
I am AWARE that I have been a big part of the problems in my relationships.
I am AWARE of how much my childhood has affected me and how I need to let go.
I am AWARE of the fact that I need to value me!
I am AWARE of how much I am capable of doing and how far I can go.
I could go on and on, but really what I am AWARE of is EVERYTHING and this is such a big step for me!!!!!
This is a good thing, because how do you make change if you are not AWARE of what is wrong?
So, what is your word?