I GAVE UP! Do you hear me? I GAVE UP on you Mr. Scale.
It is yet again time to weigh in for the Loose it Bitches competition and for the record, I am saying phooey to it based on all of your comments to my last post. I am going to refrain from getting on the scale until the end and am going to just keep working my ass off because it feels good and let my clothes and my mind be the judge. I must say that today, is the first day that my clothes feel loose. I feel good. I can tell that my legs are slimming down on the sides and my arms are toning up. So bite me Mr. Scale, I don’t need you to tell me that I am kicking ass!
I just read/listened to the Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett and I must say that it was awesome. It was 50hrs long and one of the reasons that I enjoyed doing my cardio every day. So if anyone has any suggestions on a book to replace my reason to love cardio, please let me know. My thighs will thank you!
My daughter must have been sick of hanging out with me this weekend. She avoided me at every turn on Sunday and when we were lying down to go to bed, she said, “mommy, I don’t like you”. Ouch!! I was in shock, since she is a little love bug. She is known at daycare for being the lover, hugger and cuddler. She is always saying “I Yuv you mommy”, and “I so happy see you mommy”. But tonight, she said I don’t like you mommy with a frown on her face. Twice. I guess we all have our moments since I can admit to a few times that I haven’t liked her too much either. So I said, that is ok, I still love you! 10 minutes later I feel her little hand on my face and her breath on my arm. So I guess she started to like me again. Sigh and it begins!
I am a HUGE sucker for people playing with my hair. It was actually on my list of dating have to haves when I was young. It can put me in a good mood with the first touch and it will put me to sleep with little more. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it. I miss, miss, miss it. That is all!
I am really starting to realize a lot more about the goods, bads and uglies of Danielle. I am coming to grips with some of it and struggling with others. It is really hard and yet such a good eye opening experience for me. I wish I would have wanted to do this searching for me in my late 20’s and early 30’s, but I didn’t, so now I have a lot of catching up to do. Things are starting to resonate with me and I am spending a lot of time thinking and realizing. I am actually excited for this decade of my life. I think it is going to prove to be my best. It is going to be hard, but rewarding in the end. I feel really good and yet a lot scared right now. It should be interesting.