Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I want that one and that one and ummm, that one!
This is why I had never gotten married before. I knew that I wasn’t the “one man for the rest of my life” kind of gal. After I had my daughter and turned 38 I really wanted to change this behavior, so I gave it a go. I got married and guess what? Just saying that I wanted to change it didn’t make it happen. So after one year of eating black licorice, I gave up. Can you blame me, that's some nasty tasting crap!
I use the excuse that it just isn’t for me. It doesn’t make me a bad person as long as I know it and don’t fool people and that I let people know up front that we can have fun but I am not a long term girl.
So, where is this going you ask? Well, I don’t really want my daughter to see men come and go. I don’t really want to end up old, wrinkly and relying on her to wipe my ass and mostly, I do want to find a love that I deserve.
So, how do I get the hell out of the candy store with just one kind of candy and learn to love it even when the wrapper gets torn off?