Lately I have been writing about all of the stuff that I fear, that I want to and need to change about myself, and that I don’t like about myself and it has been a little draining I must say. I am sure reading about it is worse. *apologetic smile*. I am sure as an outsider looking in it seems as though my life is pretty gloomy right now.
Well, the funny thing about that is that I am actually feeling pretty good these days.
I have a job right now and although they cut my hours so that I now have Fridays off, which means less money, (not good). That also means a three day weekend every week and I can’t tell you how nice that has been.
A few of my friends have really stepped up lately and shown me what friendship is all about. When the chips are down, my friends are there. That in it’s self makes me one hell of a lucky girl.
My family is healthy and we really don’t have any drama. We are all really looking forward to Christmas this year since my daughter is starting to understand it. I can not wait to see her face Christmas morning.
My STBX and I have really found our good place. We work well together now that we aren’t living in the same house. I think that we are going to be very good friends and that makes everything less stressful.
Ok, here is a big one for me to admit since I don’t talk about my dating life on here much. I have met someone that I think could be the real deal at some point. We are starting out as friends, no, really just friends. There has been NO physical and a whole lot of mental going on. It is nice for right now. We both need time to figure are own stuff out and want to do that before we start anything. So in the mean time, we are getting to know each other as friends. Holy Cow, what a novel concept. *Shut it Mindymom* LOL
Anyhow, that last paragraph gives me a whole other post and some huge fears surrounding it that will be coming soon, but for now, I am enjoying some mental peace even though my writing has felt quite contrary to that. I think that you have to feel some pain if you really want to grow. Boy, I must be doing a whole lot of growing! *Geesh*