Well, it has been a while. It seems like this not working stuff is busier for me than a 40 hour a week job. I can’t figure out where all of my time is going. I have slacked on writing posts and reading. Please forgive me I am trying to get better. I miss all of you!
If you follow me on Facebook you know that I am giddy happy with my new guy. I hate posting about relationships since it seems to be the kiss of death for me, but I think/no I am sure that this one is different. He is a keeper and is sticking! We talk about everything. Things that bother us are easy to communicate about and move on from. I am feeling safe and cherished for the first time in my life. Sure there have been some small issues, but we talk about them. We work through them and we seem to come out better.
One thing that we have both noticed is how I am on the phone. It is really our only source of contention.
I seem to be amazingly happy and secure when we are together. No issues, and then, we talk on the phone and I seem to get a chip on my shoulder. He says he feels like I am on the defensive almost every time we talk on the phone. I have been wracking my brain trying to figure out why it is that I do this. I can be sitting there so excited for him to call, bragging about how wonderful he is to my mom and then I answer the phone and BAMM, I get an attitude for the silliest reason. It is so ridiculous.
I wonder if it is some sort of control issue or insecurity??? I just can’t put my finger on it, but I know I do it. Anyone else have phone issues with their significant other?
If anyone suggests that I don’t talk on the phone, I will fly to where ever you are and beat you bloody with my happy stick! I know a few of you will be tempted! LOL
Anyhow, I do miss all of you!