I have nothing and everything going on right now. Don’t ask, it doesn’t make sense to me either.
I just know that I am physically staying busy with soccer, the gym, my daughter, my friends, a possible move, work, family and a few other things. I have been feeling a little overwhelmed with how busy life is right now and yet I feel like I am at a stand still. It is a weird feeling and I really can’t explain it. It may be what is causing my mental blog block lately. I have a lot to say and yet nothing seems worthy of “putting it out there”.
The mental part is what has me spinning. My brain has been working overtime and it is exhausting. I think too much. I am a chick and that is what we do. Sage is going to say it is the whole “vagina thing” It comes standard issue with the installation of a vagina (his words) and I agree.
So here are some of my confusing hormone induced thoughts as of late.
I hate going out on dates. If I never have to have a first date again I would be very happy.
I hate being pressured to do anything. I shut down and hide.
I have gotten away from working on myself lately. I have had a few wake-up calls reminding me that I still have a lot of work to do.
Life is good right now and yet I have anxiety. It sucks.
I am not strict enough with my daughter and it is going to bite me in the ass soon if I don’t grab hold.
I am getting a divorce. (As in he signed the paperwork) Finally! Woot woot!!!
I am going to be 40 in 2 ½ months. Ugggg
Someone has been consuming my thoughts lately. It is a good thing. I hope!
Work has been crazy lately and I love it. Pulling my hair out makes me happy, go figure.
A female at work told me she has a crush on me. (This is not the person that has been consuming my thoughts) However I took it as a great compliment!
Anywho, there ya have it! Having a vagina can be trying sometimes! *Wink*
I HAVE TO FIND OUT ON YOUR BLOG THAT HE FINALLY SIGNED!!???
ReplyDeleteThe rest I pretty much know already so I still love you. :)
moving? oh no... away from the rockies to in island no doubt?
ReplyDelete*sighs*
So now I will unpack my camping gear and get ready to surf maybe...
Ho far south are you moving? They have some awesome deals right now I hear.
ReplyDeleteThose vaginas are somethin else. How can something be so damn perfect and cause so much trouble? It is always good policy to agree with Sage-fucious. When a vagina is installated it tend to cause trouble for the vagina haver.
It'll all work out!
YAY on the divorce!!
ReplyDeleteAnd you know, you actually never do have to go on a first date again. Just sayin'.
Damn Sugar,
ReplyDeleteThat's a whole lot rattling around in your head right now.
Just take one day at a time.
xoxo
~vk~
Sah-weet on the signing of the papers!!!! My divorce took for fucking ever bc he wouldn't sign for EVER and EVER. Congrats!
ReplyDeleteYou have quite the fan club of people who have crushes on you... ;)
xoxo
Yay for the divorce and staying busy! And yay for girl crushes! ;)
ReplyDeleteLove you D. Thank you for continuing to share with us.
xxoo
Congrats on your divorce, and yay for having a vagina !
ReplyDeleteI am also a proud owner of a vagina, and I enjoy being female, as unpredictable as we can be sometimes.
Its okay u can make ur mind and then change! Ur a spended woman is all I know and I'm happy for u! Wohooo
ReplyDeleteits ok, dont worry, such things happen in a woman's life and its her job to deal with it because women are so efficient and good at things they do, these things are there just to test us and we will emerge as winners in the end
ReplyDeleteSO glad you shared. I always feel better after I let it all out.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the divorce. That made me feel better, too! ;)
I'm happy for you my dear, hope everything goes smoothly.
ReplyDeleteLife has its ebb and flow. Right now it seems you have a lot going on so just enjoy the ride. Dating and things like that can wait till quieter times. Yeah get a handle on your daughter or the next 40 years will be REAL hell.
ReplyDeleteI think for your 40th bday we should hit Vegas! :) FOR NAKED HUGGING!!
ReplyDeleteI can relate to so many of your thoughts...anxiety seems to stick around even when life is good. hang in there!
ReplyDeletecongrats on the divorce...don't be to hard on yourself as a mom, we all have to find our strength and balance!!....you have alot happening!! I can see why there is anxiety! its not because life is bad! just busy!!:)
ReplyDeleteHaha I can relate to several of these. I guess it is a vagina thing...
ReplyDeleteEven though you may not fully see it, it sounds like you're in a GREAT place. Ready to jump off into something new and exciting.
I hate going on first dates. I mean, I like meeting people, but I prefer having a girlfriend than having to chase women.
ReplyDeleteTurning 40 is great. I've enjoyed my 40s more than my 30s, and second only to my 20s.
The trick is to not let the thoughts consume your reason. That is the trick. Hard to master.
ReplyDeleteLoves.
I have the exact opposite problem....NO vagina.
ReplyDeleteHowever, it is the 4th of July weekend and I'm moving to Charleston next week...
Congrats on the divorce and it's time to do exactly what YOU want to do...your 40's will be awesome! You will begin to realize your wisdom in time and that you DO KNOW what you're doing...and the experiences of life has given it to you.
You are a beautiful woman...all men love that and age is not relevant.
If I worked with you, I'd have a girl crush on you too. *meow*
ReplyDeleteAlso as a proud owner of a vagina, I can relate! I'm sorry to hear you have anxiety, I totally know how that goes! Though it's always nice to be crushed on by somebody unexpected! I hope things keep looking up for you x
ReplyDeleteMy vagina causes me not to think. Go figure.
ReplyDeleteyou do have a lot going on! um, i have a crush on you too. can i say that here?
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the divorce going through! Sounds like you have a lot going on right now.
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine dating again...ugh.
ReplyDeleteWTF? How did I not even KNOW you were married??
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