OK, so WOW! That is how I feel about all of you right now. The comments on my last post are why I blog! The support is amazing and humbling and ass kicking. I need it, I love it, and I want some more of it! Sorry for going all country on your asses for a second there.
Here is the deal. I am a self proclaimed ME hater. I don’t want pity, I want to change. Everything that I do “bad” in my life stems from me not loving myself. Years and years of doing things that I would hate someone else for doing have resulted in me truly not liking me. I know that my childhood provided me with a lot of anger and self loathing too so it is time to clear that shit out and make room for some positive. Some warm fuzzies for me!
So for now, this blog is going to get really ugly! I have always tried to keep it up beat and positive but I am fooling myself. I am an honest person, sometimes to a fault but unfortunately I haven’t been honest to myself. I am going to use this site as an outlet and hope that it helps me grow. I am sure that I will run some people off if I am as raw as I need to be. I am sorry in advance. Hopefully I will be able to get back to sunshine and roses soon.
So bear with me if you can. Don’t sugar coat comments if necessary. Please be as honest and raw back at me if you can. I need the good and the bad. I need to get real with myself and fix this shit NOW!